Hi Rex,
It's been hard to get some balance between, gee, this is really important to
me, and well, it's kind of embarrassing as I did all the damage to my health with great enthusiasm and after all, it's only my health, so why would
anyone else care much? It's all kind of mundane, actually.
I smoked, around 2-3 packs a day from age 14 or so, for starters. Tobacco and well, other stuff too. So, > 40 years. While for most of that time, there was no obvious ill effect - to me, others complained about the smoke of course - eventually it caught up with me. And then there was all that money I spent on slow horses and fast women, wasting the rest (not an original one, but all too true in my case...). Just the crap all the doctors warn you about, along with the usual sloth, alcohol, and generally all the fun things.
It got to the point of it actually being hard to get to my mailbox - maybe 50 yards, with a slight climb. A visiting lover brought down the hammer, along with a visit to a surgeon to have a bit of skin cancer removed. The doc thew me out of the office after measuring my BP as a routine thing...it was so high they thought I might die right there and then. So, emphysema called COPD, crazy BP (like 250/130) - and general bad days with a decade or two of constantly bleeding hemorrhoids tossed in - hard on clothes, can't go out much, or get much exercise, and it'll make you jealous of women who only bleed a few days a month...Basically at age 62 or so, I was medically around 100 or something.
In the usual denial, I had undertaken automating as much of my setup as I could to avoid having to pay the consequences of those bad days...what I could get automated, I did, reducing the need to lift a finger, but also costing me the benefits of exercise. Mixed bag. Living off grid (at least with my bucks) is more work than on grid, at least on the home front. The "no bills" thing means less of the work is about getting the rent paid - there is no rent! I didn't have any decent "access to health care" which actually means - no insurance means that unless you get into serious business discussions with providers, something simple costs ridiculous - say $5k for a few stitches in a finger. That actualy happened, but I stiffed those jerks - it can be nice to laugh at them when they say they're going to bork your credit rating, as having lived without any credit since I was 18 or so - I don't have one. As it turns out, the black mark is much better than no rating at all - another whole story as for example, without one you can't get an account on the gov SS website(!) - and with nothing but a strike, all the credit card apps start coming. So funny in some dark humor world. My finger was indeed torn up - high power furbine- and many bone bits. Which they refused to pick out, saying they'd just stitch me up and re-break it later and do the surgery then (which of course means 10's of k$ more in bills to them). So...well, I'm a good enough rude field surgeon.
That situation with health care is BTW, now fine - a neighbor who is a retired paramedic/fireman turned me on to a near-secret network of docs who mostly do other docs, and don't rip you off. Amazing, it's run like any business, they know how much things really cost, charge you that plus a bit of profit, and compared to the rest of the biz, it's practically free. Most practices don't even know about the business aspect, and some MBAs in another state do it all. Along with insurance they've learned that they just bill near ininite numbers and then take whatever the insurance will pay - and if they bill less,l the insurance pays less. So when a regular person, without negotiating power gets that bill, well, we're the only ones who ever pay that kind of silly stuff. Which of course, the person you try to negotiate with doesn't even know, much less sympathize
So, not that out there as health issues, I'd guess, a few exacerbating factors perhaps. But having to wait for some confluence of the planets resulting in a good enough day to make the mailbox, or golly, the grocery store is not a great life.
And as a result, the infrastructure around here - kind of slipshod as I never put big bucks into it - ran down and I got seriously behind. Water supply and purity, woodstove, solar batteries, clothes washing, roofs leaking - again the usual boring stuff perhaps. I didn't have the kind of bucks one need so just call someone to "make it so"- I put that money into shop and science and well, toys.
So a few years back, this all took a turn. Jamie forced me to start vaping, and I learned how to use that to get off smoking entirely - it's trick that may not work for most, but it did for me. At first, just doing the vaping made things get a little better, but then things went downhill again. I'd gotten into it - temp controlled fancy vape stuff, homebrew mixes, so I had some tools to work with. I made a mix that was extremely strong - nicotine and menthol, no PEG, just glycerin (who needs the big clouds, my lungs sure didn't) - and was able to then say, well, I'll only allow myself to smoke for 5 min at the top of an hour, period. I was able to do that in highschool between classes, and that was a little hard, but do-able. I then discovered that the later in the day that first smoke was the less bad it all was, so if I could, I put off starting for another hour. One day I hit the end of the day, or nearly, and that was that - time to start the real denial of impulse, which was now far less of a habit for two reasons - one is just not doing it constantly all the time, and the other was, that stuff was so strong that only a couple hits and you'd put it down before your vision blurred too badly, so the psych habit was just less of it.
At any rate, it worked, and while it still grabs me by the throat now and then, I resist. I think I smoked half of a cigar once in the last two years - got too drunk to care. And got reminded it's not good for me, hacking for days after. I'm done.
Lower GI issues - turns out you can't live on one can of Campbells soup a day, sort of - I did for some years while staring out this off grid thing in the late '70s. That got diverticulitis going...then later, living on sugar and protein...not good.
I'd picked up a habit of just not eating much, fine in some ways, but that meant next to no fiber and just not enough stuff to keep the plumbing cleared. This caused the bleeding...and it's a lot more trouble and nastier than it's easy to relate.
So, quitting smoking, and radical diet change along with some meds (I'm lucky, I managed to get to only lisinopril really early on, because living right is the real deal) - and it's all on the mend. Now that I can exercise, I find that when I do, I'm glad I did. It's hard to make myself, still, but it's worth the effort. I'd fallen into another trap as an engineer - finding ways to never lift a finger and be super efficient allowed me to get into denial and other bad habits, and I'm still fighting that one.
I should publish some of the recipes that I worked out that put me back on track, it's really good stuff...not weird at all, just kind of boring if you have to eat it all the time - that steak above was a miniature victory of its own - normally that would have made me ill for days, and don't even sniff a pizza. Lets just say that oatmeal, fixed with a tropical fruit cup - and a nice chicken/vegetable soup, really full of goodies, without fail... it's a bigger deal than most want to tell you about.
And then I found that in my special case, sodium docusate (stool softener) is huge and I'm really on the mend. There was 100% correlation between my BP and how much ...sh*t was in there, no shit. Just running on empty -in, then out, no local storage - huge, huge, huge - my dose of BP meds has gone down a factor of ten, and it's almost time to stop entirely! All those little extra diversionary pockets are slowly going away - I might get back to near-normal. Damn.
And that too a long time - maybe 10 days or more of daily use - to really prove that the correlation was that huge. Well past the initial blowout stage.
I'm still lazy and after being a gymnast in high school (a slight build made that easy, one handed pullups are easy when there's nothing much to lift) - it was some mix of embarrassing and scary when I tried that "do ten pushups a couple times a day" thing and discovered that unlike the 100 I used to show off with, the limit was now around 4 - and that was after all this other improvement. My advice is don't go there - man, it was bad. I can now do the ten most days, but I'm glad to stop,
My lung capacity, never good, is slowly - key word - coming back, but in a couple years, not that great, the damage might be permanent.
So, in short -
Don't do too much stuff that's bad for you.
Eat the right stuff, in the right amounts.
Find good docs you can afford...more on that later, but avoid the chain franchises.
Get discipline on exercising. While I don't climb radio towers, (you know who I'm jealous of) - I'm at least back in the saddle at all, and catching up with all the infra that failed while I was also failing is a good start, if somewhat daunting.
And now I can quick walk to the mailbox.;..or even normal walk there and back, more than once on _any_ day, and not have to stop and rest a few times to do it. Doesn't sound like much, and isn't, but compared to what it was like... it's a new life.
Mea culpa - it's all my own fault, I was born with fantastic genes, got lucky in that lottery. My grandparents all lived to the 100's with little fuss. I must admit, that my mantra was "fun" and I managed more so far than most people will ever have if they live for 200 years...I never hit that bottom of addiction to alky and other drugs, I was a chipper, just keeping it fun, but still - a lot. The one good thing about being really addicted to nicotine was that you recognize instantly when something else tries to get that hold on you and know - nope, that's just not going to happen, get away from me....one external owner is bad enough.
No more monkeys! The same fiercely independent attitude that had me starting my own biz vs kissing *ass helped there; and of course you find out when you do that that you now do more kissing than ever, as now it's both customers and your people needing liplocks.
And now, back to more fun. A few more major infra issues...I need to get under a couple buildings and fix sinking foundations and things like that, as well as simply cleaning up a ton of messes from projects I left the mess from when I stopped doing them (And a huge packrat issue set) - and here we are. As I keep saying, back to fusor real soon now, clearing out a room for it and getting all the pieces togther is underway.
Now, if someone wants to help me design what amounts to a specialized VNA but with output power in the 10 or more watt range, and impedance's way higher than 50 ohms (meg or so)..I'm listening. I had a 50w broadband amp Bill found us, but it went up in smoke, not liking a no load test - and here, after whatever would step up impedance, there's going to be a pretty loopy smith chart to say the least - as well as who knows that effective impedance the charged particles will act like?
I don't need the super fast a/d - receiver part, a scope will do for what I need for the basic exploration. Just the source, big and robust and oh, it's got to be able to produce precise levels, not just some power - as the target is known to be nonlinear (those mathieu equations scale with sizes and whatnot...). Things hitting the tank walls really changes what can circulate...
Note, anyone who thinks insurance is the solution to medical care costs - I have a bridge to sell you - they're the REASON for the high costs, along with the curse of financialization that's blown up other parts of the economy.
See this guy, he's right, and I have some more if people want it from a guy who did the interface between insurance and hospitals and knows all the dirt - I'd have to find hedgeless_horseman's link again.
Edit - here it is. Goot stuff, pay attention, this is truth and it works:
http://www.silverbearcafe.com/private/0 ... tiate.html
The true skinny WILL raise your BP, though. It seems the people who want a lifetime entitlement have discovered the medical biz - "how to get paid 6 figures and more to be an incompetent receptionist for life because you were once a nurse"....
They really mess up the good people in the biz - like the 90% of gov workers who get in the way of the few who actually do good.
https://youtu.be/EeCk4MxUOIw
Still doing the fun thing. Didn't put this up on youtube for what should be obvious reasons. Dave Knight and I have been working on some extra sensitive reactive target compositions. Here's a test of 100 grams at the end of the day.
Sorry, I had to zip it, not to make it smaller, but because the board doesn't like mp4 files.
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- The new computer I'm building rendered and compressed this if 4 seconds. The need for speed!
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