by Doug Coulter » Sat May 01, 2021 9:09 am
Yeah, I hope the actual fiber gets hooked in before I can't have fun with it anymore...Right now they're doing the directional drilling stuff to get under culverts and paved driveways, the actual fiber laying truck is parked uphill on my land, no idea how much if any is spliced back to the main office. We'll see. I'm going to try to negotiate a fiber-only setup, which would in theory reduce my bill, and move to voip phone. Time will tell.
As far as my personal condition, well, state of flux. I'm on hospice care now, which means some house calls, some free med equipment like a hospital bed, commode, oxy tanks, and new drugs - some nasty stuff, they want me on methadone now, which I'm testing for the first time now...in a few hours I'll know if it's OK with me. Doesn't seem at this dose to be as good as the oxycodone, which I've been taking half-doses of, re - it's more happy pill than painkiller, so far. But it's supposed to last longer so I can maybe resume a full night's sleep. Waking up because a painkiller wore off is very not fun. They take a long time to start working again if you take more at that point.
Got the new bed tricked out...it's nicer than my old one, which I now have to figure out how to get rid of, it's out in the yard.
But it feels like "thanato-therapy" at this point, as in just dope 'em up and let them die. There's still one doc insisting he needs to work on my prostate, either to just farm medicare bucks, or just as likely, not in tune with the rest. All that stuff works as well as expected and likely won't be what kills me, so I may blow the guy off. The lung/bone/gland cancer seems a lot more pressing, and basically there's nothing more to be done there. The gland stuff moves all my regulatory systems all around so I have to constantly monitor all this crap manually - a dose of this or that which is right one day might kill me the next. Some days blood pressure is high and barely responds to meds, some days it's super low, for example, with no other changes on my part. So I don't take those meds when it's too low already for example.
Sucks, but they're doing their best to make me comfortable while still giving me the mushroom treatment - keep 'em in the dark and feed them bullshit, as if that will be better for my 'quality of life' if I don't know till just before it won't matter.
Sad to report all this nasty news. I'm doing my best to give things away to "good hands" before hand, things I was going to get around to someday which now looks like it an't gonna happen anyway. Might as well make people happy if I can and ease the job of the executor.
I'm making a backup of my 'digital estate' which is taking forever, just building the machine is taking awhile - a couple days so far just copying the master node for that ( a few million files, and I did the dumb drag/drop instead of writing an rsync script, so ext4 and a zillion files == slow,) then I'll be adding a few tb of my normal shares and machine backups to it. The originals will stay intact here for awhile too. If I do get fiber in time, I'll put it all up on google drive and share that too.
Posting as just me, not as the forum owner. Everything I say is "in my opinion" and YMMV -- which should go for everyone without saying.